For having Depression, I watch a lot of dark stuff. I'm not afraid of death. In fact, on my worst days I pray for it. I know that sound absolutely horrible, but that's just the way the mind is!

I like watching forensic TV shows, detective stuff, and other shows that contain graphic images of murders and crimes.

Why?

I guess it's a reality check. So much bad is happening every second we are alive, and the thought of that shows me that it's obviously not happening to me, so I'm not doing to bad if I'm not in that situation. I also feel like I am being reminded of how ugly and evil this world is, and every time I see what these horrible people are capable of doing to another human being, I think of how much more I need to protect my children from it.

Not only that but with each account told, I pray for that person or all who were affected by these horrible things done to them. If they died, I pray that God bring them back to a new life!

The things I can't watch, are ones that involve children, those absolutely ruin my day. It also causes me to hate, and although people who could do such things to children deserve to be hated, I can't afford to let hate grow in my heart having Depression.

When I see how easily a person can lose their life over nothing at all, I realize how much I really do want to live! To watch my children grow and discover life themselves! To enjoy every moment that we are in each others lives.

It's so easy to be distracted by everyday tasks, that you never notice the little changes in your children everyday. There truly is something that can be appreciated by each one of them every single day, and that is what those shows help me realize! That I'm not crazy, I'm not lost to the devil, I'm sane in comparison!


If you have Depression and you have done nothing like what is on these shows......then there is hope for you! You are not lost forever, you are just taking the scenic route!



Always

Dr Nobody