Today is a very sad day for me. just two years ago I lost my Grandfather.

I was all happy go lucky today until I was accidentally reminded of had happened two years ago today. So far there has been no other even that has been able to compare to this worst day of my life.

He was always supportive and kind to me. He taught me how to cook. The memories of those times are priceless! The memories of him telling me stories of growing up are wonderful! But the advice and lessons he taught me are even more valuable!


I want nothing more to crawl up into a ball and cry all day, but I can't. If I loose my cool, all the work I have done do strengthen myself will have proven to fail. I will do my best to distract myself.

Maybe I'll take my kids to do something fun! Or maybe I'll go to a bookstore, I can spend hours in a bookstore! I might even do a spring cleaning of the house so I can be really distracted!!

All I know is that I have to do something! If I don't occupy my mind with something productive, it will leave time to dwell on the loss. I can't have that.

I'm stronger than that.

I can hold back the tears. It's a choice. I am going to choose to be strong and be the wiser. I know that if I don't control my thoughts, my emotions will take over. But I am one of the strongest persons I know. I intend on keeping it that way!


I am strength. I am wise. I am in control. I am ME!


Always

Dr. Nobody